So far this summer, I’ve been waking around 8-9. I had to wake up at 7 this morning to run some errands, which lead to a cascade of excuses for reasons why I could delay my daily learning until noon, then until after lunch, then until after a short nap (which unsurprisingly went for much longer than short), then once the sun sets so the heat radiating from my computer doesn’t affect my attention, then after dinner once I’ve got some food in me, then after my post meal lethargy, and then now it’s 10pm and I’m writing this in lieu of studying the tab to the left of this one. And listening to rock music made by depressed people neither helps with my will nor energy levels…

This isn’t interesting at all, it’s just me complaining about myself, but I think laying bare my shortcomings in front of myself helps in a way. It’s like how some dog owners reprimand their dog by holding them by the collar and forcing them to look at their wrongdoings, while the dog is averting its eyes. But I won’t avert my eyes! I suck! I have principles, but no conviction! Cmon, me!